Saturday 10 Sept 2005

One of my favourite picture of Zf & Me

Finally... after 3 months of breakup.. we meet again! Zf and me went for our dinner at our "lao di fang" (our usual dating place!) blk 925. He is still so so so in love with the duck rice there. After which we went for ktv at Ang Mo Kio. He is a ktv freak, if given any chance, he would not hesitate to open own his mini o concert! Haha!

We were suppose to go catch a movie but there were no good shows and it cost $9.50 per ticket on weekends! Ridiculous man! Never know it cost so much to just watch a movie now in Singapore!! Anyway...we went KTV instead. Hmm.. feel so weird! haha! Singing duet as like last time but the feelings were so different. Felt so confused and sad when we sang songs together! Especially when the song was something that I can relate to and when its like describing about us... Sigh.. almost feel like crying.

Anyway... After the long hours of singing, it was too late so he stayed over at my place. Both of us were tired but we had a long long conversation. Trying to figure out what had happened and what went wrong in the States that led to our break up. I sincerely thinks that he was the one that initiate the break up while he thinks otherwise. And he said something like "Not like in the states, now u dun feel awkard talking to me right?", i just said "ok larz" so as to brush off the question.

Actually, I don't think I those kind of person who can be really close friends with ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends. I still feel weird seeing him and let alone, talking to him! I don't really know how he feels but he seems comfortable talking to me... so I try to be as laid back as I possibly can. Try to treat him as my any other ordinary friends. But there is always something that makes it difficult. Afterall he is the guy who I spent almost 2 years dating and we had been through alot together. He used to be the love of my life, my current affair news reporter(forced him to read news to me in Cantonese), my singer, my punching (& Pinching) bag, my joker, my everything... so... It's difficult! Sometimes i will just forget and wanted to call him dear dear or dearie... haha! but so far i have not let it slip through my mouth yet! ANyWAY IT"S OVER!

Oh ya.. just something i wanna point out.. We got to know this girl, Yanni in the states. She is a nice girl but i was really angry over the fact that she said Annie and me were influenced by the western culture and start to have flings! I mean seriously, i think what she did was worse than girls having flings. She claims that she won't be with this guy (a crush she had while working in the states) cos she loves her boyfriend (in Singapore) too much. However at the same time, she looks for the guy whenever she is having her breaks and off days, she went strolling with him on the beach, kissed him and stuff... So much for loving boyfriend too much ehz?

OK now... I'm not going to think so much about relationship! Have too many things to do! Just let things be as it is... Whatever will be will be. What's yours will be yours... but of cos.. one needs to put in some effort also! Hehe.. contradicting ehz?

Those were the Days...